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Tuesday, May 25 I've never been one to watch TV, all I used to watch was my one hour of Charmed every Wednesday; now I'm stuck to the sofa watching anything that's showing .. That is, during the times that I'm awake.
I've been sleeping so much, waking up past 12 in the afternoons - I never could sleep past 12. Waking up that late, having a tiny brunch, then going back to bed, then waking up for dinner again, then TV ... What has become of me? I don't even see the need to bathe now. If I were a male...*Imagines facial hair sprouting messily*, well ya get the picture. I need ... to get out of my rut. -->Des'ree - You Gotta Be<--
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Monday, May 24 It's been a while, I have been so weary and drained that nothing gave me the drive to write in. Solitude has become my well-embraced solace.
One could never imagine hurting another being that intensely, but I did, and it sure feels like utmost crap. Do we then try to get on with our lives, or do we hanker around hoping for lost affections to be rekindled and for past relationships to be revived? Exterior firm and strong, Insides wrenched all wrong. Committed a malignant demise, Resounding hitherto are your cries. Stoic I have now become, Alas, nothing can be done. Dread, guilt, worry, fear; These are all that are here. Let Time cast its magic, For something so tragic. Have ourselves no more goodbyes, Thus be gone my love, with no sighs. -->Az Yet - Hard To Say I'm Sorry<--
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Wednesday, May 19 An excerpt from the song "Sway" by Bic Runga :
And there's no cure No way to be sure Why everything's turned inside out Instilling so much doubt It makes me so tired I feel so uninspired My head is battling with my heart My logic has been torn apart And now it all turns sour Come sweeten every afternoon Say you'll stay Don't come and go like you do Sway my way Yeah I need to know all about you ...
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Tuesday, May 18 I did not fail my Statistics; in fact I managed to squeeze out a B-. Goes to show that the whole cohort really screwed up the finals - the final exam was 50% of the total grade, and the 2 tests (Which both I failed) were of 20% each. Miracles happen I s'ppose. And so do catastrophes. I did so fucking badly for another module. I just hope and pray that I don't have to retake that nauseating shit.
Japanese Studies, eurgh. I have never liked anything to do with Japan, be it the clothes, food, music, country, language, movies and the list goes on. After taking that bloody cussed module, I abhor any Jap-related-things even further. Taking that module to satisfy a cussed faculty requirement and having an anal-retentive tutor from Hokkaido with a fork stuffed up her arse certainly did not help things. What a bitch, she was. Did I mention that I really do not want to retake this module?! So now that even though my CAP has really hit the rock-bottoms, good news is, I do not need to change my major! However ... I have a Stats II to look forward to next semester *Dry laugh* Now what I have to do is, conjure up another miracle to pull my pathetique CAP score up. Impossible and unachievable as it may sound ... I mean, that's what miracles do, don't they. Presntly, with one load lifted off my shoulders ... another one sits stubbornly upon them, awaiting Friday. It'll be Crunch-Time, folks! I ought to have made my decision by now already, and some times I would think I have, but the next moment I wouldn't be too sure ... Indecisive Libran at work, I say. So ... Friday either makes it, or breaks it. -->Nelly ft. Kelly Rowland - Dilemma<--
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Sunday, May 16 To have cried myself to sleep last night, makes me ashamed of myself right now.
The mere thought of me crumbling defenselessly, punctures wounds and leaves me distressed. My erstwhile sordid mask and I'm dismal. I've been stripped nigh bare. Lying helplessly on my pedestal. Susceptibility is all I share. -->Cranberries - Animal Instinct<--
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Saturday, May 15 I am losing sleep.
Dreading the 5 oclock hour of next Tuesday. Exam results. I have a nagging fear that ... I will have to retake my Stats module, because I really don't wanna change my major! *Whines* And my CAP (Cumulative Average Point) will seemingly hit the very bottom of an abyss. -->Earth, Wind and Fire - Fantasy<--
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Friday, May 14 The time draws near for some major decision-making.
Exactly one week to a show-down. What does a girl do ... ? Ach! Gee, I don't even know how to pen my thoughts down appropriately now. Let's say ... You've always liked soursops, and you've been having soursops for a long time and now you're getting bored of them, so custard apples hop along ... You try them and you like the taste, would you then choose to have custard apples and not soursops anymore? Okay ... I didn't make much sense, did I? Fancy this ... a soursop and custard apple analogy, from me. *Wry laugh* Ah well ... Torn between two loveeeeely fruits. -hum- -->Sting - Stolen Car<-- |