And so my belief about life has been reinforced. Everything happens for a reason indeed. There was a reason why I could not withdraw my Work and Travel USA programme and had to go along with it. Then at that point in time, the reason was unknown. But this fine Sunday morning, being awoken by a very rude and immature SMS, the reason came to light.

A friend sms'ed me a few days ago, asking me if I thought he was too nice as he felt that nice people always lose in the race to the 'bad' ones, and that nice people always get taken advantage of. I said, yeah, he is nice, but people who are truly nice are the way they are without expecting anything in return from the rest, for they are only being true to themselves by being nice. Now let me tell you this. This day, on the 2nd of April, 2006, I retract what I said to him. People who are nice DO get taken advantaged of - they get made used of, they get lied to, they get treated like rotten dirty panties and get cast aside after use. Just like that, with a snap of your fingers. And I say, people who are nice are being plain stupid.

I want to be mad, I want to be frustrated, filled with rage so that it will be easier for me. But those angry emotions are not within my grasp ... All that is enveloping me are immense hurt, and utmost disappointment.

Today, someone very close to me betrayed me. She made me walk the plank with no room for consideration.

This very day, I lost a very good friend.


Leave the body, leave the mind
Leave the body, leave the mind
Every promise every place behind

I just happend to feel so alone
for today for all days to come
I just wanna be wanna be gone
I just wanna be wanna be gone

Leave the quiet, leave the night
Leave the quiet, leave the night
Broken feelings of dreams out of sight

Pictures in your head at night
For tonight for all nights to come
Erased for good and always gone
Erased for good and always gone

Leave the city, leave the cold
Leave the city, leave the cold
Young people far too old

Let me cross a very fine line
for today for a lifetime
For today for a lifetime

Leave the body, leave the mind
Let me
Leave the body, leave the mind
Every promise every place behind

I just happend to feel so alone
for today for all days to come
for today for all days to come
I just wanna be wanna be gone

-->Anna Ternheim - To Be Gone<--

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